I tend to put things down in lists and then I go about doing other things entirely that are not on lists thanks to the mental freedom I feel.

That feels really good at first but then I realize my commitments are not complete or well captured enough in the system and later it sinks back in that I have not met the goals I am supposed to be doing and I tend to feel discouraged. In other words, I am getting distracted from my lists and doing other stuff.

Any perspective appreciated.