I've been reading some posts. I'm not quite sure this is the right forum to vent but it keeps coming to my mind to try discussing this here. My friends don't understand as their jobs are not nearly as demanding as mine.
I have so many things on my plate that I don't think I could ever get them done (well). And employer wants everything ASAP and indicates that I am non-responsive when I simply can't get to everything (or whichever thing he wanted most). Also I sort of have 2-3 "bosses" in regards to people making direct demands of me.
I ask for help, I've even indicated specific tasks and knowledgeable people (who have time) who could help. For some tasks I've suggested having interns or students help. But they do not listen.
I like my work and am very knowledgeable in my industry. I value this. But it can't be so important that I do everything that they should overlook my requests for assistance. It's frustrating and demoralizing that I have this long list of stuff that I can do but that I can never do within the available time. Stuff drops off and I feel badly about it but the only way I'd have time is to not sleep and I require solid sleep. Plus we all know lack of sleep makes us slower and more likely to make mistakes.
I'm thinking of looking for another job (I have 2 solid leads) but I'm not confident that things will be better. And tho I have this endless demoralization (with largely successful highlights that keep me in the cage), I am comfortable with it because every now and then it seems things are getting clearer and we're figuring out our roles better.
This co. is a very dynamic start-up that has good potential but I'm not sure they recognize the value I bring.
I keep lists but all I can see is that there's no way I can get it all done and I do need some time off on weekends and such but when I have the time off, everything nags and it is just worse when I get back.
How would I know if there are truly too many things to do and that I have to refuse or give things up? And what do I do when they say no one else can do it? It's important to me that these things get done. But it seems impossible and it's distressing me way too much. What do I do when they won't let me say no? I could say yes if they'd listen to my requests for assistance.
Please give me your thoughts. Thanks for listening. Every now and then I just want to give up and throw everything out and forget it (it can't all get done) and hide in my garden for the rest of my life (or just a month or so I guess). There should be some happy medium that could be reached here. But instead it's distressing, depressing, and demoralizing.